inkblot

model - elena nikolaevna

clothes - made by moi

this is my first collection..

it's still in the making

i only have these few garments done..

and i'm so lucky

that my beautiful friend elena

agreed to model them for me

..

i loved the idea of making my own inkblot prints

and had so much fun playing with paint

to create different effects

..

 left the cut simple 

that way print gets to be the star

..

mokosha

four walls

peplum top - self made

skirt - vintage, gift

shoes - peacocks 

belt - new yorker 

you're going to see a lot

of this shooting location

..

it's just a few minutes away from my apartment

and it's sort of private

so i don't feel awkward 

with my tripod and everything

..

it's outside, so there's plenty of natural light

but at the same time

it's inside, as i have four walls around me

..

it's also creepy, which is my favorite quality of this place..

there is trash everywhere

and crazy amount of broken mannequins

and i find it quite amusing 

to be surrounded 

with all the crumbled legs and torsos and feet and heads

while taking my pics..

somehow, it helps me relax  

..

mokosha

11 random facts about me

skirt - self made

blouse - self made

cardigan - made in china 

heels - peacocks 

bonus photo - coffee and homemade cherry pie 

a note:

pictures above have absolutely 

nothing to do with this text..

even more confusing

last photo is just me bragging about my newest pie

..

11 random facts about me:

1

i'm afraid of sheep.. i'm fine with snakes, spiders, 

all sorts of wild animals, but sheep creeps me out

2

often i believe i'm dreaming

someone else's dreams.. 

those dreams are in color or black and white

and no-one of the people in the dream

is familiar to me..

sometimes they even talk in unknown languages..

3

i don't really like children

don't like to touch them

don't like to talk to them

when i have to be around children

i always bring my camera with me

and kind of hide behind it

taking hundreds of photos

4

i climb mountains

and at the same time

i'm a bit afraid of heights..

i believe i managed to climb europe's highest peak 

(mount elbrus in caucasus)

simply because it was a night climb

and i couldn't see where i was

5

jim jarmusch is my all time favorite director

i can watch his movies ad nauseum

6

i  love swimming

can breaststroke for hours

it's like a meditation 

like a fabulous breathing exercise..

also, i have this fantasy

of imaginative world

where people swim all the time

instead of walking..

might write a story about that one day

7

i haven't eat meat 

since i was 13 years old..

one day i saw

how a calf becomes veal

and that was it - no more meat for me..

i do, however, eat all animals

that i don't mind killing myself

such as fish, squid, mussels, snails, frogs, bugs

8

i fantasize of owning a hippie van

9

melon is the only fruit i don't like

10

when i was a kid

i read a book about guatemala

some sort of a travel book

wrote in the 50's by some jewish czech writer

by the name of norbert fryd..

ever since then, guatemala become my dream country

i promised myself to find the way to get there

and repeat his trip

at some point of my life..

that book is also the reason why i first

started getting interested in archaeology

(it had bunch of pics and stories

about maya civilisation)

11

when i'm not dreaming someone else's dreams

i often dream i'm flying

and that's the best feeling ever

and feels so realistic 

with wind in my face

and chills if i go to high

or fly too fast

it's joyful and simply magical 

..

mokosha

nameless

nightgown - self made

meet my new dress form

(have yet to come up with a name for her)

..

made this nightgown the other day

tried to photograph me wearing it

but it was simply impossible 

to do that on my own

in this tiny apartment we have

(and it's a bit too wintery outside

to hide in some nearby bushes

trying to shoot pics with my usual help 

of tripod and stray dogs)

..

so.. as i said

meet my new dress form

she's a strange one, isn't she?

i must have been consumed way too many vodkas

when i order her

'cause she's a size smaller than i am

and her constructors must have sniffed some craft glue  

'cause poor thing has absolutely no ass whatsoever

..

any name suggestions?

..

mokosha

sew grateful blouse

blouse - self made

pants - thrifted

started working on this blouse a year ago
traced the pattern
cut the fabric
sewed the bow tie
(you maybe even saw the tie
in this post)
and then abandoned the whole thing
..
no special reason for that
happens all the time
my closet is full of ufo-s
(as in 'unfinished object'
not that i have a closet full of flying saucers)
..
but this february
debi made me remember the blouse
..
got this fabric from a friend
she was making a dress
i helped her cut the fabric for that dress
she let me take the leftovers home with me
..
so fabric was gifted to me
buttons were also a gift
it sounded like a good idea
to make this blouse my sew grateful project..
and on top of that
i got rid of one of the ufos
..
mokosha

hard candy

dress - self made

dunno what to do with this dress

..

loved the idea:

creamy cotton fabric with pink polka dots

and heart-shaped neck line

sounds like a match made in heaven

..

made the dress on my brand new sewing machine

it was a dream to sew with it

so

yeah.. so far it sounds 

like it should have been a total success

..

and you know how i always say

i don't give a damn what other people think

about my outfits

..

well, that is true

but i guess i don't give a damn

about what strangers think about my outfits

i don't mind going out in public wearing strange things

too colorful or too costumey ones

..

but, when it comes to my own mother

one look is all that takes

to make me feel like shit..

not a single word

just a look
(well, a stare more than a look)

saying:

you are 15 kg too heavy

and 15 years too old

to wear something like that

..

here i am

4 days later

i decided to pick myself up

dust myself off

and give it another try

(should have worked a bit harder on my facial expression though)

..

mokosha